Today, it was close to 45 degrees. Compared to the rest of February, it felt like the first coming of Spring, which always incorporates a great feeling with it. There are a multitude of possibilites that come with a new season, or even a day that feels like a new season. Granted, it's a bit cliche to think that every new season has to be a new change in person or pattern, but, as I've typed before, it's much easier to make a change if it comes from two sources: inside and outside.
But what if this cha---(goes to Thesaurus.com)... about-face.. that we encounter, from either side, doesn't really work out? Let me incorporate an example. I went to practice today, and I went to my locker and the doors, both of them, that lead to my locker were locked. I couldn't get in. None of my keys worked and I couldn't even see inside the room because the lights were off. So, I wanted to do something (inside) and I couldn't make it work because of shut doors (outside). One end wasn't working with the other.. I wasn't too pleased with Safety Services but I got over it.
Why am I rambling? I think i'm finally figuring out my huge downfall.. I reason too well. If both sides of the change are saying YES, I usually find a way to make it not work. That's what sucks about living in such a 3-D world, theres that third (or fifth) or wahtever number-th odd option that usually gets you out of stuff... or me, at least. Maybe I should be more one-directional and just say YES. I should see that movie with Jim Carey.
Or not. I MEAN YES. Yeesh.
What's so good about being chickenshit?? Playing it safe all the time, being comfortable? Pain, or at the very least, discomfort has to happen in order for anything REAL to take place! Confusion, unintelligble blather has to be processed and homogenized in that space of grey matter we all claim to have in our craniums before decisions are made.. I think I've given Louis Pasteur enough time to mess with my head, I've got to either drink it, or throw it away before it gets all old and chewy... and before I do too.
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